It all started with a yamn. Yes a simple yamn. Walking home from work last Saturday I yawned, strectched & pulled a muscle in my torso. Doesn’t sound too serious but it hurt like hell. I couldn’t breathe, move or barely stand up. I hadn’t done my long run for the week & planned to do it bright & early the following morning. As my alarm went off on the Sunday I could barely get out of bed. I decided at that point that it was my body telling me to take some time off & enjoy this Christmas & take a break from running….what’s the worst that can happen in a week.
You may be surprised to know that I did take total time off from my fitness routine over the last week (not like me at all I know) to help me reflect & digest all the events that have occurred in my life in the past 8months, to stop & smell the roses to see just how I have come & to enjoy all the rewards of my efforts.
I am so glad that I did Chritsmas 2012 has been by far the best Christmas I can remember in a long time. What made it special I hear you ask? Well time spent well with my family…..no dramas, no fighting just people enjoying each others company & the kids going crazy of course. Christmas 2012 for me was not about getting presents, the material aspect of things or the food. The one thing that I wanted more than anything was to give my kids a great xmas they would remember & to have a great time with Rob’s & my family…. & I did. I didn’t have any extended family around growing up so sitting back at Christmas lunch watching my kids enjoying the company of both sets of grandparents, aunts, uncles & cousins I just couldn’t wipe the smile off my face.
In my last blog I mentioned that I have been mending a fractured relationship with my sister over the last year & she had not met my kids. Well I am happy to say that is no longer the case. We arranged to have a family catch up & give her a chance to meet my girls. It was such a great feeling to have my girls meet her, but even better was the fact that the day went without a hitch. Once again as I sat back I could not get the smile off my face.. the only people who had a smile as big as mine was my parents, glad & relieved that no longer was there this gaping divide that seperated our family. For the first time in 8 years all the members of our family were all together in one room talking & more importantly getting along….life is good, I love having my sister back after so many years.
On the food front I was extremely pleased mith myself. It was the first Christmas that I didn’t stuff myself stupid with food or alcohol. Don’t worry I did indulge & eat outside the my normal restrictions but the big difference I found was that I had ALOT more self control. I could try a few things without eating the whole platter & just stopped at one. The difference meant that I was able to run around & play with the kids not just sitting at the table because I felt self concoius or because I ate way too much & couldn’t move. I can finally feel my mindset is slowly shifting food is no longer used to comfort or abuse., for the first time my soul is full, I don’t need to fill it with food to try & fill that void…things are good.
Well the craziness of Christmas has come & gone, the New Year is just around the coner. It’s only natural to look at the past year reflect the good, the great, the bad, the hard & the ugly bits of the year …..To say it’s been a big year is an understatement. I started my list of personal & fitness achievements in 2012 as I am a very visual person I need to SEE exactly what I have done. To say I am proud is an understatement. I remember last New Years Eve I made a promise that 2012 would be the year of change for me & it has … 2013 is going to be the year of smashing my running goals, de-clutter my life, get organised & to find myself along the way.
To you all my exercise friends I would like to wish you all a safe & happy New Year. I look forward to strengthening the friendships I have made & look forward to all the new challenges that 2013 has in stall for me.